Hold your head up

This is a 2 in 1 post. It is a song review and also my confession. No, I did not commit any crimes. It's not that kind of confession but it's pretty much about everything I believe in, the story of my life.

So here goes nothing... this is the song in case you have no clue what I'm talking about: 

And now let's take all the lyrics and talk about them, shall we?

Hold your head up, there's a light in the sky.
I know you're fed up, but you must try to survive.
Each moment's precious, don't let life pass you by-
Keep focused, keep your eyes on the prize.

This is the chorus and it gives the song title. It talks about never losing hope even if everything seems useless and the struggle never ends, you need to keep your dream alive and not to be a victim. If you fall, always get up. Hold your head up and find the strength to go on. That's what we all try to do. Well, not everyone. Some have it easy, others don't. But sometimes you must fail 99 times before succeeding the 100th time. Einstein said that and he had a higher IQ than me. So believe him.

A friend of mine once told me,
We have many paths in this journey.
They act in different directions
So when you question don't be worried,
It's not a wrong one-
Beauty can be found in all of them.

Maybe Macklemore's friend told him that, mine didn't. I had to learn that by myself through the nice process of trial and error. I had many fails in my short life but I've learned that they build character. I was afraid of failure and never did anything until I realized that is stupid and I have so much to lose if I don't try. So what if I fail? It's not like I am performing surgery. It's my life and if I make mistakes I will hopefully learn from them and become a better person. 

But now talking about the lyrics... we can make many different choices in life and none of them are wrong, you can learn something from every experience. So it's not a matter of good/bad choices, it's a matter of just choosing something. The binary system of 1 and 0. Let's say that 1 is a choice and 0 is no choice. Do you want to be a 0 or a number 1? I say...just choose something, don't be afraid.

You'll meet people whose paths intersect
But you don't know how long you'll walk with them,
Cause' the truth is, and it's so hard, but you'll never know
How long we'll continue with our loved ones down this rugged road.
The path veers and it's clear that we must steer alone.
I've learned if you can't hold on to that moment that exists-
Let it go.

This is the cold hard truth. We meet people who share similar paths with us but there comes a time when you take different directions and then you must walk your path alone. So we must learn to appreciate the persons in our lives when they are around because we can't know how long they will be with us. You know that saying that some people are there for a reason, others for a season and others for a lifetime. You can't know for sure under what category a person falls under. People change, situations change. Even if it sometimes seems like it, life is never predictable. 

I have lost many persons I cared for. Some of them because they are no longer in this world, some of them because they chose a different path and we no longer share the same interests. That's life. 

Cause' freedom is god.
Freedom is acknowledging the mask you have on
And possessing the strength to take it off.
Freedom is accepting every step of the path
And when it's hard having faith in the ability to embrace that
That's where you are,
And this is it.
The same shit that we work towards,
But go against in the same sense.

Freedom is my core value. Sometimes I feel trapped in this world. I hate the fact that society dictates the way we should live. That is not freedom. We are forced to hide our real selves and be all diplomatic and stuff...talk in a certain way, dress in a certain way, have a certain lifestyle. If we do not match those standards we are considered outcasts. That is stupid! We can't be all stupid sheep. I will never understand that, never. These rules...Yes, we should not harm others, we should not steal or be dishonest but don't tell me how to live my life and what to like. I want to be allowed to be myself and express myself the way I feel. No fake smiles, no fake words. 

I know that I am not on the "edge of glory" but I am no idiot either. I am certain that I am walking in the right direction. I am no longer afraid of failure, I am no longer afraid of loneliness and most of all I am no longer afraid of my potential. I will get to where I want to be. Where is that? To inspire people to be themselves and speak their mind. That is all I want. To have the freedom to be myself and to inspire others to have the same freedom. We are all unique. We should act like that.

My friend hit me to some game and truth unraveled, she said
"The brighter the light, the darker the shadow",
And since I'm on cliche terms, knowing is half the battle.
But I don't know,
So I just go with what was destined.
Life can be a burden or a blessing,
The choice is yours to be connected.
It's there if you want it, you got it, now let it.

Man, that is so true. The more potential you have, the harder it is for you to manifest it. The more you know, the harder it becomes. That's why they say that ignorance is bliss. 

Here connected means to be aware of the oneness. Life is about perception. If you feel like a victim, you become a victim, if you feel like a winner, you will eventually become one. Life is beautiful, it's a divine gift. We humans complicated it because we are too proud, too stupid, too evil and too blind to see the perfection of creation. All things are connected. If you wake up and realize that your life will never be the same again. You will feel the need to shout is out loud and to let everyone know. 

I feel like I have nothing to give right now,
This is my trial, tribulations, and it must go down,
But where's the up?
I'm stuck with the broken smile,
No jokin' now, wantin' to grab a swish and smoke this out.
The moment of a man choosing what path I will go down
Do I give in, give up, or get up and live right now?
With a split gut, pick myself up and spit my style,
This is the only thing that can holds my ground.

I have felt like this many times. I want to help others be happy. I want that with all my heart because I know how it feels to be alone and misunderstood but I can't walk someone else's path for them. We each have our own destiny, different obstacles we must face. I sometimes feel sad and alone. I just want to close my eyes and disappear. I am optimistic but sometimes it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel because it seems like the hard times never stop. But I know they do. If I have to choose, I choose to get up and live. And create. Everything I write, I write from the heart. Maybe it can help someone. 

You're born into this world alone and alone you'll go out
All I have is myself and everyone else I doubt.
You can only trust yourself and depend on the help of the pound
Inside the chest that beats with the breath of the now.

This is sad... but it is true. No one else is responsible for the way you live your life and for your choices or your happiness. You are alone, my friend. Maybe someone helps you, maybe someone is there for you but in the end we are all on our own. This is not being selfish, this is the survival instinct. I am not saying this refers to stepping on corpses to achieve what you want, absolutely not. It refers to the fact that we can't burden anyone else with our existence, we must be brave and be able to manage on our own. 

I'm ok with being my own best friend. I learned to live with myself even if I am difficult and I sometimes annoy the hell out of me. I am an INFP and I sometimes find that so hard. I live in a world where everyone takes themselves so seriously, they want the big ass careers, the fancy stuff, the I don't know what material things, they care about what others think about them, they want to fit in. I just want to live in a peaceful world and I want everyone to be happy because I am a freakin' idealist. I believe in utopia. I want it. I want to be free to dream, to write, to create beautiful things. I don't want to be a slave for someone else's business, to be a fake person just to be liked by others. I really don't care what others think, it's their problem. They are free to think what they like. 

No sunshine when she's gone, I can only see clouds.
No homies can hold me down, the spirit's testing me now
But I can withstand this world, but it seems so foul
Flood of emotions, it's like I'm being held down to drown.

This I don't agree with. Who the hell is She? Maybe he is talking about a girl or something but I am not into girls. I can't even change that with He because my other half is still with me.

Flood of emotions, yes. You can say that again, brother. I feel like that from time to time because as an idealist I have the image in my head of how the world should be and then reality hits me and I feel helpless and hopeless. The thing that disgusts me the most in this world is the blend between stupidity and evilness. Everyone is too busy judging everyone else because they are too stupid to think about self development and to try and become a better version of themselves. Everyone is arguing, judging, lying, fighting, hating. I just want it to stop! Why can't we all just get along? It's not that hard. We are all human...no one is perfect, we all make mistakes. We must learn to accept one another and live in harmony. Live and let live, people. Live and let live... 

Hell's right around the corner, but I can turn it around.
You always have a choice, no matter the situation, you're not bound,
To nothing, no one. You're chosen for this job,
This is your life, you can't escape this bitch when it's hard.
Just know that it passes, but you'll collect scars-
They never go away, but they will make you who you are.
This is a beautiful struggle, I share it in song cause'
I can't control this, remember: the moment's beyond us.

Hell is not that place your soul goes to when your body dies. Hell is something you can live right here and right now if your soul dies while you are still alive. If you let your dreams die, your life fades away and you are living a lie, welcome to hell. But you can change that. If there is a Hell here there is also a Heaven and you can achieve that state of mind and spirit by choosing to be a good person and most of all to be FREE. Nothing is forever. Not even the bad things that happen. They will pass. 

You can't control everything but you can try and control the way you react to the things that happen to you. Yes, life is beautiful. That's why it's called in these lyrics "a beautiful struggle". This is your story. We are here on this earth and we are living this life to learn something and to evolve. We can't do that if we are not faced with some struggles along the way. It's all for the best. We don't see that when we suffer but if we are wise enough we will realize at some point that everything that happened in our lives made us who we are. Be happy that you can experience life no matter how hard it is. We are all here for a reason, everyone plays a part in this story. 

This is it, my friends. My review/ confessions/ whatever.