The leader

I knew from the very beginning that I was the one chosen for this mission. The mission of living a life full of experiences and so many feelings both positive and negative. And why? So I can become wise and teach others how to stay strong and keep on living without losing faith. 

I know that I don't have great social skills. I cannot fake that I like someone if I don't. You can see it on my face. People that use others to get what they want disgust me. I am not going to befriend the boss or the president or the I don't know what man/woman in power just to be promoted. If I don't feel like I like a person I won't talk to them. I don't give a shit about their social status. Someone can be wealthy and a bad person or they can be poor and a cool person or they can be cool and rich as well as mean and poor. 

I am feeling pressured by time. I don't even realize that I am almost 30 and haven't really done anything with my real self. I have gained knowledge, I have felt many spiritual things but in the real world I am a loser. I will probably end up still living with my parents when I am 40 and I will have 20 cats. 

I know in my heart that I will make it somehow but I am just faced with my biggest test: patience. I was never good at waiting. So I guess that my luck is waiting for me to find my patience. 

I don't want to be the new Bill Gates. I just want to live a good life. I want my own house so I can build a home that represents me. I don't want a career but I do want to have a job I love, a stable one and well-paid. 

I want to finish my novel by the time I'm 31 and maybe write other novels too. I want to learn how to draw and get into making manga. I have plenty of ideas.

I have faith that the world will change for the better and the hate will stop.

All I do, all that I am, all that I think...I just want to inspire others, I want others to know that they are not alone. I have felt many things too, I can be there for most of the people. I want to help make this world better. I am an idealist and I will play my part in all of this. That is a promise.