Bye, bye, 2014!
I liked this year. It was a good one from a spiritual perspective. I think I am closer to being myself more than ever and being ok with it too. I have nothing to hide anymore. I know that I might be weird and stuff and antisocial or even bipolar. But I don't care. I have my good parts and I want to focus on those. Even if I will never reach my highest potential because of my extreme shyness ( read stupidity) I will still try to make the best of it and maybe heal the scars on my soul.
I don't expect anyone to fully understand what is going on with me, they are the normal ones, I am different. I was born a writer and I will die a writer no matter the social statuses or other idiotic things like that. I express myself in writing better than I do when I talk. Every person has something special. This is my special thing. This is the real me. Maybe my brain is broken, that is why I don't fit in. Maybe I seem whiny and people think that I do not have a care in the world and that I am just a spoiled brat. People don't understand depression. It's like a cancer for the soul... but I am a fighter and I will survive until the end.
It still was a good year. Even if I haven't made any real friends I got some of my old ones back. It's hard for someone to be friends with me. I do not fancy talking on the phone for hours or going shopping. Man, I do not like to be friends with girls in the first place. Just some girls. But mostly, no. They are sweet and talk to you like they care in your face and behind your back they gossip and spread rumors about you and bleah...the drama.
I admit that I am quite disappointed of myself. I have not managed to heal completely. I still have more issues than a magazine and I still don't like or trust people. Oh, well....maybe somewhere out there there are others like me. Or maybe I am the last of my kind...I don't know.
Bye, 2014. I liked you because you were good to me. I grew as a person and now I can openly talk about my problems. :) and I changed my workplace...twice. Also I started vlogging, I started redecorating my room, met new people, and I felt happier than before. Maybe I will be ok after all...maybe I will become the person I want to become. I just need to have patience.
And happy 100th post!
You will always have someone like me if you need me >:D<
ReplyDeleteYou will always have someone like me if you need me >:D<
ReplyDeleteYou said it twice so you must really mean it :))))
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