That song review by Cory Kay: Korn-Thoughtless

It's all fun and games until someone gets hurt. Especially when that someone is me. Yes, ladies and gentlemen reading my blog. It's that time of the year again when yours truly starts bitching about the misfortunes she had when she was a kid. And what better way to express all these emotions than through analyzing some depressing music. Now I am not saying that Korn is all that depressive. It is one of my favorite bands and I like them but they are not talking about unicorns and rainbows. 

I chose to review this song because I can relate to the lyrics. 

As a kid I experienced some bullying because I was too sensitive and the other kids were assholes. But let's cut to the chase already.  Here is my review of Thoughtless by Korn.

Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies

Pushing all the mercy down, down, down

I wanna see you try to take a swing at me

Come on, gonna put you on the ground, ground, ground

This first paragraph is about imagining how your  wrong-doers are being tortured the next time they try to hurt you, how they feel all the pain they caused you. Maybe that is why I like horror movies so much. I imagine how the ones that hurt me are the main characters that get sliced and diced. Don’t judge. It’s hard to be a kid and be constantly mocked. It’s hard to get over it…even when it happened more than 15 years ago…

Why are you trying to make fun of me?

You think it's funny?

What the fuck you think it's doing to me?

You take your turn lashing out at me

I want you crying with your dirty ass in front of me

See what I mean?  Being made fun of is not such a good thing. Here in my country people take bullying so lightly. That’s why so many teenagers commit suicide. When you are not emotionally stable at a young age every bad word makes you feel like you are worthless. And kids can be so mean, I blame the parents… And in regard to the lyrics… when you are faced with constant mockery, people making fun of you, you are left with scars. You can get over it but it takes time; Most of the time you just wish for revenge.

All of my hate cannot be found

I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming

So you can try to tear me down

Beat me to the ground

I will see you screaming

I think these lyrics talk about karma and how it will all turn against the one that hurts you. If someone tries to break your spirit, this deed will eventually be punished one way or another.

They tried to do that to me, consciously or not, but they did not succeed. Maybe then it got me all depressed because I was a kid and I didn’t know any better but now…now I take everything as it is, I became strong and confident; So confident that I am able to speak about all these things from my past.

Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies

I'm above you, smiling at you, drown, drown, drown

I wanna kill and rape you the way you raped me

And I'll pull the trigger

And you're down, down, down

Yeah, yeah…now that I’ve seen the Mortal Kombat X fatalities, all the parts from Final Destination and Saw I can imagine great ways of killing you in my mind; and that makes me smile. No one killed me…they tried to kill my spirit and succeeded for a brief period of time but thank God no one tried to rape me; Or at least not in the physical way.  I wouldn’t pull the trigger…I’ll leave Karma to do her job and take care of things.

Why are you trying to make fun of me?

You think it's funny?

What the fuck you think it's doing to me?

You take your turn lashing out at me

I want you crying with your dirty ass in front of me

This I already explained…

All of my hate cannot be found

I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming

So you can try to tear me down

Beat me to the ground

I will see you screaming

I’m still alive and well. I did hate them back then but hate only poisons one’s soul so they do not deserve so much attention.

All my friends are gone, they died (gonna take you down)

They all screamed, and cried (gonna take you down)

Yeah….even my friends bailed on me when times got hard but who can blame them? We were only kids…and kids are evil.

I've got my body, got my body back against the wall

I've got my body, got my body back against the wall

Gonna take you down

The wall of fame, maybe….All is well that ends well….

I've got my body, got my body back against the wall

I've got my body, got my body back against the...

No, I don’t.

All of my hate cannot be found

I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming

So you can try to tear me down

Beat me to the ground

I will see you screaming

All of my hate cannot be found

I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming

So you can try to tear me down

Beat me to the ground

I will see you screaming

In conclusion…this song expressed my emotions from back then, but now I am over it. The only reason I am still talking about it is because it might benefit someone else from this young generation; if they still have a soul that is…I sometimes doubt it.